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Chiisu321
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Name: Alice, Allyce
Gender: Female
Interests: ~TO be creative is much more impressive than to be knowledgable. But to be knowledgable is much more satisfying than to be unknowingly ignorant.~
My interests are ecclectic. =P
Expertise: BeIn' mE and just about anythin music related.
Makin people as happy as they can be.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
7/20/2004
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| So, here I am. -10lbs later (if not more), MUCH better dressed and much longer hair (sorta).
Supposedly beautiful, supposedly smart, supposedly charming.
On the verge of..........who the hell even knows.
It's almost my birthday. 4mths away (actually a little less?)
I should be working on my MODA design application. I have ideas in my head, but who knows if I'm good enough. It's not that I care, I just hate rejection.
Paul Huang.
I'm so intrigued by you. Whenever the world seems to fail me, you always show up out of nowhere and in a matter of minutes make my day.
Every girl knows when there is a trend of guys they keep choosing.
I've obviously been falling for the wrong guys. Even now, the other guys on my "list" are horrible choices as far as relationships go. I realized, you're different than any guy I've ever liked before. I don't mean in that whole "HE'S DIFFERENT" bullshit type way either. I almost don't like you for it.....almost. You're easy to talk to even though when we're not talking I freak out about what we could talk about next. Somehow, we always end up talking about the most unexpected thing. "Klimt?!" how the fuck does that become a topic after starting off talking about your hella amazing tattoo. TATTOO; i love that you have one and are so in love with the concept of it. That, my friend, is respectable.
You're so sweet. I'm used to assholes obviously trying to get at me or play themselves up. You're never doing either. You're just talking to me. Who knows if you have intentions, I don't know.
Learning Jap so you can speak to your grandparents and connect with them. Holy hell, THAT'S respectable.
Being a mix of japanese, chinese AND korean. That's just hot and totally lucky for me to not have to choose. You're hard to follow. You talk in circles and get so off topic and then somehow go back to the original topic and I have NO fucking clue by then what the original topic is. You're just like me!
You talk so fast and laugh in between your gestures seem sporadic. It's so damn cute, but very distracting. I actually have to TRY to remember what we could have been talking about. I think that is, in part, because you're so much more worldly then I am. TEACH ME! You're so smart. Influence me and make me more like you >-< I'm sure I can teach you something.....or not.
You've always been top of the list. From fucking day one.
I ran into Paul at the coffee shop today. I had a feeling that if I went to a coffee shop, i would see him there. But, it was still an unexpected event. Almost out of a movie. What are the odds, you know?
Fall Formal yesterday was kind of a fail. Today is better, but still basically suckish.
at least I looked supa hot and got to eat gourmet food :D This school is so fucking rich and wasteful. If we spent less money on food, i could have a lower tuition!
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| Is it that I want someone to take care of or that I want someone to take care of me?
No, not just anyone will do. I'm not like you, i don't do hook ups. It's just not my style.
I don't know why I keep most of you around. You're no good to me.
Come home soon. I'm waiting.
Why is it I'm the housewife and you're like the successful, but cheating husband?
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| so, i keep trying to explain it to people, but they either don't get it or don't listen.
I don't know why I talk so much when I know no one is listening to me. =/
demo, anata ga kiite iru yo ne, kamisama.
For so long, I've known what I want to be and have never had a problem in my pursuit. So, obviously, I don't have the same thought pattern of everyone else here. Why should I worry about school? Why should I stress about homework. Just because I don't stress about it, doesn't mean I'm not doing it. I am and I do well (more or less). Just because I'm not freaking out about my life, doesn't mean I won't live it well. If I even keep living it.
Anyway, my point is (that no one ever seems to get) I don't have the normal stresses of my peers. My problems may seem trivial, but to me they are huge. and the problems of my peers seem trivial to me. I am more concerned with finding a partner than I am with whether or not I'll be successful in life. I already know I will.
So, of course I always talk of men and beauty. What else should I talk about?
I imagine killing myself. Is imagining the same as wanting? If i find pleasure in thinking it.....no, not pleasure. relief.....hmmm
I'm sure it's enough if I just die in my head. Either way, I could always make things more interesting >:]
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| Don't give a care to who is watching.
Live with inhibition and speak freely whatever happiness and sorrow comes to heart.
Too out dated. I know I must be. There is no such thing as me these days. But, here I am. Deserving souls might live their whole lives in depression. I'm sure many have. Why think it should not exist anymore? Why do we find ourselves so above the dysfunctions of the past?
Attention is what I say I want. But, if it's not from who you want, why even get it, you know? Douzi, I know you know.
Life is hard. I think it would be easier to die. But, in fear that I might be reborn to a life worse than this, I won't risk it.
Wo shi huai ni!!!
If I could die.
Wo shi huai ni!!!
If I can leave here
Wo shi huai ni!!!
There has to be another way to exclaim it other than on the damn computer. I wish it was okay to say it to your face. But, I can't take rejection right now. no no no
How can I tell you?
and what the hell am I doing with my life? Why am I so dissatisfied? When will it change?
I wish I could see the future.
well, i think that's it for today. Random thoughts. blah blah
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| again.
Damn college. If 1 gets sick, we all get sick. I skipped all my classes.
Someone pulled the fire alarm at 9am. It's a good thing I wasn't sleeping, sick with a fever (sarcasm)
Midterms tomorrow. I probably should be studying.
Mara is in the RAs room again I think. I hate living across from
a guy I'm crushing on.
Deep Springs?
Does that mean he's gay?
I hope not, but who knows.
I would fall for the SUPER gay of the gays? lmao
He doesn't seem super gay, but all boys school rings some daunting bells.
I have the most horrible luck.
Bye
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